my job.

when i initially started my job, you would not have found a happier worker on this planet. seriously. i loved my job... i more than loved my job...adored my job. i was enthralled to go to work every.single.day. while adam loathed going to his, i was so excited to go to mine. i kept my nose up & my head held high... i did NOT want to get into anyone's drama, anyone's business. and believe me, there was plenty to go around. working in an environment almost entirely of girls, it was hard not to hear someone talking about someone at some point during the day. i would turn my head & my attention to someone else.

one day, i was doing something nice for someone else. a few coworkers did not like that & started talking really nasty about me. i heard it. i saw it. it was heartbreaking. i was being targeted because i was happy. because i was nice. because i cared. it got pretty vicious & still, almost a year later, is not the same. 

i do not like going to work most days. the girls are nasty. it is a hard lesson to learn that maturity is not an age; that after high school, drama does not end. my current job is worse than high school was... girls almost twice my age are meaner to me than any 17-year-old EVER was.

i do find comfort knowing that the Lord puts us places for a reason. while i now loathe my job, i have learned so much about myself. about being patient, more tactful with my speech, how to be humble, how to swallow my pride, how a defensive response soaked in sarcasm is not always never helpful...

God know what He is doing. while practicing these things at work, it has carried over into areas of my entire life... with adam, with family, with friends. and while i snap or react wrongly sometimes, i have noticed that the Lord has used this area of sadness & rain to make me an even happier, joyful person.

so, if you're in a bad spot right now, know that it will get better. 

sometimes, you just have to go through the valleys to stand upon the mountain of God.

so, put on your big girl pants & a smile on your face & a chin help up high...

get out there & dance & do something silly.

and when you're trying of your own accord, looking to your boss to help, or trusting in other coworkers, family, or friends...

remember, what the Lord told us in Matthew 19:26,

²⁶ Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

and i promise... it will get better. and God will help you through. in ways you won't expect... just like He did me... working on MYSELF. speaking through my husband to my heart... 

working on making myself a better person & that helping to encourage others...

praying for you, 

jaceroni

ps, you can make a difference no matter what job you are at. let the Lord's light shine bright through you to every single person that you come in contact with. and always remember, our real job is to serve the Lord.

Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.

Colossians 3:23, NLT